Breezy all at Sea

Tyra again proved to me tonight that she plays favorites. Laura should’ve won ANTM and instead that snotty bitchy girl won. Ugh.

In other news around here, I bought my plane tickets for LA! I will be there for 4 days. I’m trying to figure out a place to throw my birthday bash for the Saturday night that is free. One place told me they want, and I’m not joking, $85,000. I was like, WTF??? How on earth can they charge that? Others want $600 and up for bottle service. Obviously not gonna happen on my budget. So I’m trying to find a free place. Kinda hard especially since I’m stuck here, but I’ll figure it out. I just hope it’s sunny and not raining while I’m there.

Oh and 3 days til I see New Moon!!! Woo hoo…

So this weekend I made plans both nights and went out both nights. Friday was re-connecting with my friend E. It was good to see her, drink some vodka, admire cute boys, and just laugh. Saturday was meeting up with a new friend A. We had some serious conversations about life, God, how we hate the weather in this city, etc. We made some new friends with some Englishmen. That was fun. They were great guys who I could discuss things with such as London, pub food, football, and Devon. I definitely have an itch to go to the UK and I need to figure out how to make it happen.

Not much planned this week. Church tomorrow. Jr League meeting Thursday. Nephew and museum Saturday. Meeting up with R from LA Saturday night. New Moon on Sunday. Well, I guess it’s a few things. And the gym thrown in here or there.

And finally, I dyed my hair warm champagne brown. I thought it would be a lot lighter than it is, but I guess it really grabbed my hair, for now it is dark brown with a reddish tint. Luckily, it will fade.

So some nights I lie in bed thinking of random things I can blog about. Sometimes they’re so clever and witty I wish I could write them down. But I don’t, and I always forget the next day.

I’m trying to be more positive on here and in life as people don’t like to read about whiners or hear about it all the time. I’m going to have to be more selective as to what I update my status on facebook from now on because there’s certain people on there that I don’t want thinking I’m a negative person. So that means a bit more whining on here. Not that I have that much new to whine about, but you all know my story. Nothing has changed and as 30 rapidly approaches, I’m having to deal with my great fear of living at home, single and broke. All I can do is hope in God, hope in myself and hope that my 30s bring a much better time of life.

Is gone! I can’t believe how fast time is going. Two weeks is Thanksgiving. Then Christmas 4 weeks after that? WTF?

So things are a bit better. I went out for happy hour Monday night with high school people. Kinda strange. Tuesday was church and that was good. Good sermon. Last night I had dinner/happy hour with my friend B. She’s the weird, jealous, kinda toxic person that I’ve been friends with since 1st grade. She used to be a good friend but man, times have changed. I don’t know what her deal is. We don’t have much in common and I think we just stay friends because of the history we have. Not someone that I will go out of my way to see, but eh.

Anyways, my dad went to the lung specialist today and he has a spot on his lungs. The doctor didn’t seem too concerned as it’s small. But he’s going to get a PET scan which may give a better indication if it’s cancerous or not. Pretty scary. So he’s freaked out and the way he shows that is by being angry and kinda mean. Understandable. But until we know what it is and what they can do, I don’t want to get too freaked out. Just gonna keep praying.

And, next week is New Moon time!! yay!

I haven’t blogged in a couple days because there’s not much to say. My brother and sister in law are the biggest jerks in the world. I’m so sick of them. My sister in law called and yelled at my mom because we weren’t worried about her flea bite while my dad was in the HOSPITAL! Hello! Can you say self-centered? Also, she didn’t send a card or call because she didn’t think he would like that. Okay, because no one likes a get well card or call. Whatever. Then she started crying and saying that it reminded her of when her dad died. Um, my dad isn’t dying. She’s ignorant and stupid and I’m sick of her. I don’t even want to see my nephew which I know is terrible and I shouldn’t take it out on him, but I just can’t stand to see her.

Also, my dad is really pissing me off. Today he told me it’s okay if my brother goes hunting tomorrow (wtf?) because he has a life and a family. Get that? He has a life. Apparently I don’t. I just stay at home 7 days a week, cancel my plans during the day to take him to the doctor, haven’t been to the gym in weeks, fix him food, help him get out of chairs, etc. But that’s nothing. Because I’m obviously just supposed to stay at home and do this because I’m not married and not working. Nevermind I gave up TWO temp jobs to stay home with him and I desperately need the money to pay the bills and student loans who keep harassing me. I guess because I’m not married to a bitch, that doesn’t count. You’d think he was some old Eastern European man or Greek dad or Jewish mom (not trying to bag on those people at ALL but they’re always portrayed for hasseling their kids for not being married), but no, he’s never said anything to me (except in Canada with my uncle) about not being married. Pardon me.

Ugh, I’m just so pissed.

Yesterday I went to a Jr League event that was supposed to take 3 hours. It took 40 minutes. I was going to go to church with my friend at 5, but since it was only 10 to 1pm, I didn’t want to kill time in Seattle for 4 hours. So I texted all the “friends” I have to see if anyone was free. I know was Sunday and I didn’t really expect anyone to be free. What I didn’t expect is no answers. I got a couple TWO hours later saying that they were busy. Whatever. I thought maybe my texting wasn’t working, so I texted my cousin A, but she responded right away. I’m just sick of not having normal friends here. That wouldn’t have happened in LA.

Not only that, it’s freezing, raining and dark at 4:30. I hate it here.

End vent*

I miss LA. The cold weather is setting in and it’s dark at 4:30. I miss my friends. I miss my own apartment. I miss the vibrant city that was at my fingertips. I miss all the activities, the beach, my church. I just miss LA.

Until I turn 30!!! Argh. Where is the time going? I can just see it: living at home, no job, no boyfriend. What a way to bring in the 30s. I just have to hope that isn’t the case and that the 30s are much, much better than the 20s have been. Power of positive thinking right?