Too busy for you

Now I’ve been busy the last 2 months and most of my friends understood and just let me be. However, there are a couple of them who I called over the weekend and haven’t called me back. Now I know that everyone has a life and is busy, but one particular friend B, likes to pretend that she has the most crazy busy life of anyone, ever. And I know she doesn’t. She works, works out, and maybe goes out once a week. It just irritates me that she can’t be bothered to myspace me, email me or gasp, call me back. I know she’ll call this week and give me some lame excuse about being SO busy and that she can’t see me for quite a while. It’s not like I purposefully didn’t call her, in fact, I did call her a few times and myspaced her more than once while I was studying. But that still makes me a bad friend. Basically, she’s a crap friend and I don’t know why I’m friends with her anymore. She is quite negative, puts others down to make herself feel better, is very critical of me and others, and gossips behind my back. But we’ve been friends since first grade. And I’m the type who is friends with someone until the end, unless they do something horrible to me. So basically I will continue to be her friend until that happens. And, sad to say, I’m sure there will be a breaking point soon. Sometimes you just outgrow people. I know when I move to Major City we’ll stay in touch. But at the same time, I’ll be letting our friendship fade because I just can’t stand the toxicity of her any longer.

Laws of La Vie and Death Across the Universe

Since I got home last Friday, I’ve watched about 10 movies. It wasn’t planned, but I guess I really needed to decompress and just watch mindless entertainment. I’ve watched No Reservations (eh ok), La Vie en Rose (excellent), Across the Universe (good, but I’m not a fan of musicals), Laws of Attraction (old movie that I saw last year when I took the bar), Death at a Funeral (hilarious), Where the Heart Is (a old movie constantly on the Oxygen channel), The Jane Austen Book Club (great adaptation), and Money Can’t Buy Me Love or something like that (an old ’80s flick on tv starring McDreamy)…plus a couple episodes of In Treatment, One Tree Hill and Jericho. Seems like a lot eh? But I’ve also slept a ton, worked out, caught up with friends, and studied for my test this Saturday. And with that, back to In Treatment. Gotta love on Demand, I can watch a whole week of episodes before they air.

Wedding blues

So I have a dilemma. A friend of mine, B, asked me a couple of months ago to be a bridesmaid in her wedding. She’s not a very good friend. And we haven’t been close friends for a long time. In fact, she just asked me because she doesn’t really have anyone else to ask. So the problem is that the wedding is in October. And by then I’ll be living 2 states away. Also, a really, really good friend of mine, S, is also having her wedding in October, but 3 weeks later. And that is halfway across the country. I’ve been planning on going to her wedding since last summer. And I’m guessing that I really won’t be able to get time off from work or afford to pay for 2 weddings within 3 weeks of each other. But the added problem is that B let me study in her house for the last 3 weeks before the bar exam. So I feel indebted to her I guess. But I’m really thinking that I need to tell her I can’t be in her wedding. But how do you do that without feeling like a total bitch? We were supposed to go look at bridesmaid’s dresses next weekend so if I’m going to pull out, I need to do it like, now. I generally try to be a nice person and I feel like this will make me seem totally horrible. But is it so wrong? We’re not close, I don’t even really like her all that much (for a multitude of other reasons), I can’t afford it, I’ll be living 2 states away, and I’m already committed to another wedding. Argh! Help people!

No thanks

Well, it’s over. It wasn’t as tiring as last year, but I still feel like I was hit by a train. I’m so tired, it’s like I have the flu but I don’t.

I got to see a friend from law school whom I haven’t seen in almost 2 years. It was good to see him–he also took the bar. But I totally got the I-like-you-let’s-hook-up vibe. We went out to dinner and had a couple drinks. Now, he’s a good looking, nice guy. But I’m sooo not interested. Why? Let’s see, he’s almost 40, lives at home, is foreign, divorced, and I feel bad for saying this, but he’s failed the bar 3 times. Now, I probably failed so I can’t really judge him. But with all of the combined factors plus a few others, its just not going to happen. And it’s like, why does he have to even go there? We’ve never, ever, had any kind of attraction before. We went to law school for 3 years together and he was a good friend. We weren’t super close or anything, but just because I’m being nice to him and hope to see him when I move to Major City, doesn’t mean that I “like” him. Ugh. So now I’m guessing next time I see him there’s going to be weirdness.

In other news, I watched my friend’s kids today while she had to run errands. They are 5 and 2, and never stopped moving. The whole time. They’re great kids, but man, they wore me out. It sucks because she is moving to Utah on Monday and I probably won’t see her for awhile. Not that I’ve seen her all that much in the last year or so, but she’s still one of my to-the-end friends. We’ve been friends since we were 13 and although we’ve lived far apart since the time we’ve been 18, I’m still going to miss her. It just sucks. Most of my friends are scattered all over the country and world, and I hate that. But at the same time, I’m moving away too. I just wish I could live in Major City, but still have all my dear friends close to me.

And I’m still obsessed with In Treatment. It’s such an emotional show. Go watch it!