The Weakness

One of my favorite songs is “The Weakness in Me” by Joan Armatrading. It was on the soundtrack of “10 Things I hate about You” in case you’ve never heard of it. Anyways, although the lyrics are a bit off from my situation, the title is right on. Because I am weak. Especially when it comes to losing or waiting. I hate both. Obviously there are situations where both are necessary and I understand that. Most of the time I’m pretty good-natured and let things go. However, not in the situation with Jenner. I am weak. I don’t understand what happened. And since I hate losing, I texted him. And he hasn’t written back. I feel like a fool. Yet, for my peace of mind, I had to text him one more time. So that’s the latest update with him. I’m putting him behind me now. Bar results are out soon and I need to focus on that. So for now, I’m going to listen to  that song and have a pity party…