Breezy all at Sea

So my cousin is back to being the drama queen of the lower 48.  She sent me a rather nasty email last night full of passive aggressive statements and I’m just so tired of her behavior.  I want to extend grace and love but I don’t want to be treated like crap by her anymore.

I saw her kids yesterday and that was great. The 3 year old is still the cutest thing ever and he loved seeing me and was holding my hand and was just so excited to be hanging out.  I only saw them because my cousin was out of town and her nanny invited me over. We came over to my place and went swimming ,which the kids LOVED. It was nice to have no drama surrounding the day. Until I got the email last night.

My roommate and her boyfriend are back to having sleepovers. And talking to each other in baby voices. Please hold while I vomit. I mean, c’mon. She’s 26 and talks to him like one would talk to a newborn infant.

So I have decided to give notice tomorrow. Which I’m so excited about!!! I’m not going to get caught up in the fear or worry of what the month will bring. It’s out of my hands at this point and I will go where God directs me to go. I know based on my past experiences that it can only get better from here on out.

So that’s the drama here. Still haven’t talked to my so called friends in Seattle. Which is fine by me.

Oh and I can’t go outside very much because the smoke is so bad that its like a house across the street is burning down. The fires need to stop!!

So I arrived yesterday back to LA. The flight was early and I barely slept but made up for that last night when I got almost 12 hours sleep. I’ve just been so tired lately and I know it’s PMS and emotional stuff.

I have to say, I’m not thrilled to be back. The smog, traffic, intense heat (103 yesterday) and roommate are all things I wasn’t looking forward to dealing with again.  I went to my volunteer meeting last night and found out the committee I’m on that I thought was about one thing is about an entirely different thing.  They’re both good and important ways of helping people but I was looking foward to the one that was advertised and what I thought  I was doing. Oh well. I may not be on the committee for very long anyways.

I didn’t want to make any decisions yesterday due to lack of sleep and being emotional after leaving but today, so far, isn’t much better. I pretty much have to get my roommate notice on Tuesday (the 1st) and will either be moving back or moving out. I think that it’s time to do either. She was okay yesterday and I still like the building and location of where I live, but I don’t want to deal with her anymore really. Like this morning, I turned down the a/c a bit because I was hot, and she comes downstairs and turns it right back up.

Anyways, this is just a random outpouring of my thoughts on this last Friday morning in August. More to come later.

Ok, I’ve been debating about moving home for over a month and I’m going CRAZY. I cannot make a decision. Last night I met up with some friends and toured some neighborhoods in Seattle that I really liked and could see myself living in.  It was good to see my friends E and S. E and I used to be really good friends but kinda drifted apart after she met her boyfriend and this crazy girl who in E’s own word monopolized her and didn’t want her to be friends with anyone else. I think that if I move back, we would be friends again. S and I have been friends for years and he’s a cool guy. No one that I could be in a relationship with, but a good guy friend.

So, someone. Please tell me what to do. Option 1: stay in LA, try to find my own apartment, worry about my parents, keep looking for a job and have good friends, church and other activities ,and have the exciting city of LA at my fingertips.  Option 2: move home to help care for my parents, start over with friends, church and activities, deal with the rainy weather, potentially live at home for an unspecified amount of time and maybe miss LA a lot.

Be honest!! And please comment. I need unbiased opinions please!!!

I’m leaving in about 6 hours to go home for 10 days. Yay! I’m almost done packing–yuck. I hate that you have to pay to check luggage now. So lame airlines!

Not much is new. My cousin has decided to drive me to the airport which is really nice of her, but I can’t help but think it’s only because she knows she’s been shitty lately. Oh well, its free! My roommate’s boyfriend finally spoke to me after about 5 days of ignoring me. I made brief replies to his query about me going home. I don’t need his attitude and I’ll be civil but I’m not going to be friendly anymore. It’s not his house and I’m tired of him living here.

Um, and I’m excited to see my cat! But sad that I won’t see the T-man for 2 weeks! Boo.

I just got home after 4 hours in the salon getting my hair back to a nice white blonde. It looks fabulous.

However, I came into the house with the a/c on full blast and the windows open. Awesome. Let’s cool off LA shall we? And not only that but my roommate is working and her boyfriend is home with the tv blaring in her room. Argh. He’s been such an ass lately and I’m so pissed he’s here when she’s not. Even if he’s in her room its still not okay. Gah.