Breezy all at Sea

Until I turn 30!!! Argh. Where is the time going? I can just see it: living at home, no job, no boyfriend. What a way to bring in the 30s. I just have to hope that isn’t the case and that the 30s are much, much better than the 20s have been. Power of positive thinking right?

So my dad is still in the hospital. He’s doing a bit better. Can walk on his own and is less shaky and less confused. Still not where he should be, but better every day. Thank God. He wants to come home and was quite choked that he couldn’t today. I spent all day there, learning the physical exercises I have to do with him. We can’t leave him alone at all for a while. Until he gets better. They wanted to put him a short term care facility but they wouldn’t take him because he used to smoke. Whatever. So hopefully I will be able to manage. I’m kinda worried about it. I had to turn down a temp job today which is okay but I really need money. So it’s hard. I’m more worried about my dad, it just sucks that this is happening all right now.

My brother just went to the hospital today. First time since Saturday when he was there for 20 minutes. He had to go hunting today because apparently that’s more important. My sister in law hasn’t called or anything. So needless to say, I’m stressed and quite pissed off at them.

I get home tonight to find my sister in law and nephew here. Was not in the mood to deal with it. She doesn’t say anything to me. I find my brand new expensive scarf on the ground. I say, can you pick something up when you drop it? She replies very snottily that it wasn’t her that did it. And I said, well it didn’t fall itself. Especially since the chair it was on was moved. So whatever, she yells back at me. I lose my shit. I just went off her for a second. Then she texts my brother that I told them they’re not welcome. BS! So my mom calls and tells me I have to apologize. Um, no. I’m not saying I’m sorry. My friend who was on the phone with me when my mom called agreed and said I did nothing wrong. Maybe I shouldn’t have lost my temper. But they haven’t done anything and she was quite rude to me from the minute I walked in the door. So I’m just supposed to be the bigger person? Sorry, I know it’s un-Christ like to act like this, but I’m under enormous stress and grief right now and she’s getting the brunt of it right now. She needs to buck up and act like family. And my brother needs to make my parents a priority. He doesn’t. Only calls when he wants something (like gas money or money). Ugh, my rant is done. But really? They are in their 30’s and act like this. Grow up.

So not much new on the job/friend front.

However, my dad has been in the hospital since Friday. He should be coming home tomorrow. Early Friday morning, he started acting really weird and his speech was slurred. He fell and cut his hand really badly. I took him to the doctor for an appointment and the doctor said he needed to go to the hospital immediately. Luckily, the ER was empty so we got right in. Basically he has too much carbon monoxide in his blood. He’s on oxygen but it’s not working. We’re kinda confused as to an exact diagnosis because we haven’t spoken to a doctor since the ER on Friday. We were at the hospital for 8 hours today and when we stepped out while the rehab girl came in, the doctor finally came so we missed her. So annoying! He’s speaking a lot better and breathing better but is pretty confused. Keeps asking about our cat, wants to know why he can’t go home, etc. So that kinda freaks us out. We’re not sure what is really going on. But we’re glad his speech is better. And this may be the end of his 55 years of smoking. Finally!! I hope he is able to quit and realize that it’s killing him. He already has emphysema.

I’m so thankful for all my friends thoughts and prayers. My family has been pretty lame. My brother did go to the hospital for like 30 minutes yesterday and did have to work today. But my stupid sister-in-law hasn’t called, visited or anything. She is so selfish. Ugh. She did the same while my mom was in the hospital. Awful. And my cousin A was supposed to tell my uncle but didn’t. And A’s mom who is on Facebook (where there are status updates about what’s going on) and has been on, hasn’t even been in touch. So rude.

So anyways, that’s been my life for the last few days. Hopefully he will be able to come home tomorrow and regain some strength and be okay mentally. Pretty scary stuff.