Breezy all at Sea

So my dad is still in the hospital. He’s doing a bit better. Can walk on his own and is less shaky and less confused. Still not where he should be, but better every day. Thank God. He wants to come home and was quite choked that he couldn’t today. I spent all day there, learning the physical exercises I have to do with him. We can’t leave him alone at all for a while. Until he gets better. They wanted to put him a short term care facility but they wouldn’t take him because he used to smoke. Whatever. So hopefully I will be able to manage. I’m kinda worried about it. I had to turn down a temp job today which is okay but I really need money. So it’s hard. I’m more worried about my dad, it just sucks that this is happening all right now.

My brother just went to the hospital today. First time since Saturday when he was there for 20 minutes. He had to go hunting today because apparently that’s more important. My sister in law hasn’t called or anything. So needless to say, I’m stressed and quite pissed off at them.

I get home tonight to find my sister in law and nephew here. Was not in the mood to deal with it. She doesn’t say anything to me. I find my brand new expensive scarf on the ground. I say, can you pick something up when you drop it? She replies very snottily that it wasn’t her that did it. And I said, well it didn’t fall itself. Especially since the chair it was on was moved. So whatever, she yells back at me. I lose my shit. I just went off her for a second. Then she texts my brother that I told them they’re not welcome. BS! So my mom calls and tells me I have to apologize. Um, no. I’m not saying I’m sorry. My friend who was on the phone with me when my mom called agreed and said I did nothing wrong. Maybe I shouldn’t have lost my temper. But they haven’t done anything and she was quite rude to me from the minute I walked in the door. So I’m just supposed to be the bigger person? Sorry, I know it’s un-Christ like to act like this, but I’m under enormous stress and grief right now and she’s getting the brunt of it right now. She needs to buck up and act like family. And my brother needs to make my parents a priority. He doesn’t. Only calls when he wants something (like gas money or money). Ugh, my rant is done. But really? They are in their 30’s and act like this. Grow up.