I miss LA. The cold weather is setting in and it’s dark at 4:30. I miss my friends. I miss my own apartment. I miss the vibrant city that was at my fingertips. I miss all the activities, the beach, my church. I just miss LA.

Until I turn 30!!! Argh. Where is the time going? I can just see it: living at home, no job, no boyfriend. What a way to bring in the 30s. I just have to hope that isn’t the case and that the 30s are much, much better than the 20s have been. Power of positive thinking right?

Anyone else obsessed with Farmville on Facebook? Because I am. It’s funny because it’s a fake farm, but I really worry if I don’t harvest my crops! Ah, Facebook. You are the devil.

So my ex-friend J sent me probably the nastiest email I’ve ever received. I didn’t even read it, just skimmed it after the first sentence. Numerous insults and swear words inundated the email. This is from a 33 year old woman. Very sad and pathetic. Needless to say, she’s blocked on Facebook and I will never speak to her again. She leads a very sad life and I feel the ultimate pity for her.

So remember my friend, now ex-friend, J?  The one who was a bitch to me on the phone back in August after my mom was in the hospital and all she cared about was her stupid bachelorette party? Yeah her. So she de-friended me on Facebook. I was going to do it, but thought I’d be the bigger person and not do it. And then I found out today she had. Nice huh? I promptly deleted her on my myspace. Yes, I realize I sunk to her level but I don’t care. And I deleted the picture of us on Facebook. And I wrote a nice little comment on our mutual friend G’s page. Immature yes, but again, I don’t care. Bitch.

Tonight was fun. I had drinks with my new friend B. We chatted for well over 3 hours and it was great. I love having new, quality friends.

Another rainy, gross, cold, windy day. Ugh. I hate this weather.

My dad is doing better. He is annoying though. He likes to lie in bed and talk to us and make comments on what we say and what the tv says. My mom and I are going crazy.  My brother is here today to help out. Finally. I’m supposed to go out to have a break but since it’s gross outside, I have no money, no friends and nothing to do, I don’t know what to do.

I am going to meet a new friend for drinks tonight though. She seems really cool. We met at church and are both in Jr League and she’s from the OC. Always good to have an another SoCal person around

Hope everyone is doing alright out there.

Thanks to everyone who wrote wishing us well (really only 2 of you, but still, thanks). My dad is home and so far, so good. Not sure what it’s going to be like now, especially since he can never drink or smoke again. For someone who has been doing that for 50+ years, it’s going to be tough. He really got a second chance at life and I hope he takes advantage of it.

And in other random news, I feel like a nun. No potential men anywhere.

So my dad is still in the hospital. He’s doing a bit better. Can walk on his own and is less shaky and less confused. Still not where he should be, but better every day. Thank God. He wants to come home and was quite choked that he couldn’t today. I spent all day there, learning the physical exercises I have to do with him. We can’t leave him alone at all for a while. Until he gets better. They wanted to put him a short term care facility but they wouldn’t take him because he used to smoke. Whatever. So hopefully I will be able to manage. I’m kinda worried about it. I had to turn down a temp job today which is okay but I really need money. So it’s hard. I’m more worried about my dad, it just sucks that this is happening all right now.

My brother just went to the hospital today. First time since Saturday when he was there for 20 minutes. He had to go hunting today because apparently that’s more important. My sister in law hasn’t called or anything. So needless to say, I’m stressed and quite pissed off at them.

I get home tonight to find my sister in law and nephew here. Was not in the mood to deal with it. She doesn’t say anything to me. I find my brand new expensive scarf on the ground. I say, can you pick something up when you drop it? She replies very snottily that it wasn’t her that did it. And I said, well it didn’t fall itself. Especially since the chair it was on was moved. So whatever, she yells back at me. I lose my shit. I just went off her for a second. Then she texts my brother that I told them they’re not welcome. BS! So my mom calls and tells me I have to apologize. Um, no. I’m not saying I’m sorry. My friend who was on the phone with me when my mom called agreed and said I did nothing wrong. Maybe I shouldn’t have lost my temper. But they haven’t done anything and she was quite rude to me from the minute I walked in the door. So I’m just supposed to be the bigger person? Sorry, I know it’s un-Christ like to act like this, but I’m under enormous stress and grief right now and she’s getting the brunt of it right now. She needs to buck up and act like family. And my brother needs to make my parents a priority. He doesn’t. Only calls when he wants something (like gas money or money). Ugh, my rant is done. But really? They are in their 30’s and act like this. Grow up.

So not much new on the job/friend front.

However, my dad has been in the hospital since Friday. He should be coming home tomorrow. Early Friday morning, he started acting really weird and his speech was slurred. He fell and cut his hand really badly. I took him to the doctor for an appointment and the doctor said he needed to go to the hospital immediately. Luckily, the ER was empty so we got right in. Basically he has too much carbon monoxide in his blood. He’s on oxygen but it’s not working. We’re kinda confused as to an exact diagnosis because we haven’t spoken to a doctor since the ER on Friday. We were at the hospital for 8 hours today and when we stepped out while the rehab girl came in, the doctor finally came so we missed her. So annoying! He’s speaking a lot better and breathing better but is pretty confused. Keeps asking about our cat, wants to know why he can’t go home, etc. So that kinda freaks us out. We’re not sure what is really going on. But we’re glad his speech is better. And this may be the end of his 55 years of smoking. Finally!! I hope he is able to quit and realize that it’s killing him. He already has emphysema.

I’m so thankful for all my friends thoughts and prayers. My family has been pretty lame. My brother did go to the hospital for like 30 minutes yesterday and did have to work today. But my stupid sister-in-law hasn’t called, visited or anything. She is so selfish. Ugh. She did the same while my mom was in the hospital. Awful. And my cousin A was supposed to tell my uncle but didn’t. And A’s mom who is on Facebook (where there are status updates about what’s going on) and has been on, hasn’t even been in touch. So rude.

So anyways, that’s been my life for the last few days. Hopefully he will be able to come home tomorrow and regain some strength and be okay mentally. Pretty scary stuff.

Well, the rain is here. And I’m sure it will be for a loooooooong time. After all, this is the rainy city right? Vom.

We got home yesterday after our weekend in BC. It was great seeing the family. I went out for drinks with my younger cousins, K and An, and then clubbing/bar hopping with  A. And I remembered why I hate clubs now. Call me old, but I’m really over the loud music and guys leering at me. We got cat called outside the club and were told we had nice shitters. Wow, I wonder if that ever works for those losers. Ugh! Other than that, it was fun to hang out with them.

Sunday was the day we celebrated Thanksgiving. My younger cousin A and I went shopping and I got a very nice Scottish cashmere scarf. I definitely need more winter clothes. My wardrobe tends to be all summery clothes and I noticed the lack of warm clothes when I unpacked. My closet is pretty scarce. Even my mom commented on my lack of clothes and she’s usually the first one to say I have too many clothes (as if that’s possible!)

Of course it was a bit awkward like I predicted. A brought her boyfriend and my mom was sooo excited to meet him and talked to him a bunch.  I felt a bit odd being the older single cousin, but thank God no one said anything while I was around. Dinner was nice but it kinda pissed me off because I had to sit in the living room and eat off tv trays with K, A and her boyfriend. I guess because I’m single I’m not allowed to sit at the adult table. Really made me mad. They said there wasn’t enough room but they could have squeezed me in. Oh well.

Monday we went shopping and then traveled a bit south to see an old family friend and her husband. It was good to see them as her husband is about to die of lung cancer. Very sad but he’s in his 80s and we all can tell how big the burden is for our friend. She’s the original Martha Stewart too. Made all sorts of homemade food and is just the epitome of what a hostess should be.

Then that night my cousins A and K and I went out for dinner and saw Couples Retreat. Man. What a drag of a movie. I didn’t really want to see it, and it just went on and on and on and on. And then when we left, it had only been 1.5 hours. It felt like 3. It was terrible. Maybe I was overtired, but yuck. What a waste of my time and money.

Yesterday we came home after a long day of ferry rides and driving. I caught up on my sleep today and now will venture out into the rain *shudder* to run errands.

I miss LA