Breezy all at Sea

Things have been weird with HN. I’d really appreciate some advice–males especially.

I hadn’t seen him since the bar incident (see older post) and I was getting a bit ansy. I was talking to my friend A yesterday and he told me that since HN hadn’t asked me out, that he probably wasn’t interested. I had pretty much convinced myself of this and was working on getting over him. I reasoned that it’d been 10 days, and although we hadn’t seen each other, if he was really interested, he would have approached me or found a way to approach me.

So last night my friend L was over and we were hanging out. We heard some noises outside and I flicked the blinds and HN was walking towards the window. We waved and I was mortified. L had been getting ready to leave anyways and she thought that it would be a good time for me to walk her out. As we left my apartment, we ran into HN and a girl entering the complex. I was shocked. It felt like I’d been kicked in the stomach. I’m sure my face revealed my shock but oh well. After L left, I texted my friend P and told her what had happened. She offered to meet up with me for a quick drink. We did and we had a mutual bitchfest over men and our crushes. I was pretty upset and was determined to just forget HN and move on.

When I pulled up to my complex, HN and the girl were leaving and gave each other a very quick, friendly hug goodbye. He looked at me as I drove by to park. So to recap, this girl, whoever she was, was only at his apartment for about 2 hours and there was only a quick hug goodbye.

Today I was conflicted. Do I just continue my plan to forget him? Or not? I had decided to just forget him. Again, it was obvious he wasn’t interested since he hadn’t made his move.

Later this afternoon, I was outside talking to a friend on the phone. I was telling her the story when HN entered the complex from the far right gate in a baseball uniform. About five minutes later, he left his apartment and walked right by me. This is interesting since he had entered through the far gate, most likely he was parked by the gate and really had no reason to leave the complex by my gate, which is on the other side of the street. But anyways. He stopped, smiled, said hi and asked if I had gotten a new car. I smiled and replied yes and wasn’t it so pretty. This was while I was still on the phone. I should mention here that when other neighbors walk by when I’m on the phone or when I see them on the phone, the most contact we exchange is a smile or a quick hi. So I was pretty happy that HN stopped and made conversation, albeit brief it was. After he left, his roommate came out. I finished my conversation and got up to go inside. He said hello and asked how I was and we discussed the weather and pool. This is odd because he has never really talked to me in the nine months I’ve lived here, except for the past few weeks. It could be that he’s just being neighborly, but I don’t know.

So now I’m confused. Was the girl last night a date? A friend? A photograpy client? Why did he stop and talk to me? Why did he exit through the closest gate? Why hasn’t he asked me out? Why!!!???

I’m going to keep trying to let it go and just let whatever is meant to be, be, but that’s hard. Especially since I’m leaving Wednesday to go home for a week (yay!) and don’t want to be wondering what the heck is going on while I’m 2000 miles away.

I know I’m a bit neurotic, but I am unemployed, crushing and this is my blog. But please, please, give me advice!!!!

So tonight I went to HN’s place of employment. My friend L and I went out and first we hit up another bar near his bar, and then we headed up the street to his. I was too nervous to go in, but she just went in so I had to go in. I acted surprised that he worked there (my roommate told me a few weeks ago) and we sat at the bar. I tipped him pretty generously and we just sat there while we drank our drinks (me, Stella; her, malibu/pineapple). We talked about a few different things–like where he grew up, his job, sports, my roommate, his photography business, his family, etc. He asked me a few things and asked my friend a couple things when I was in the bathroom. He is so cute and kinda dorky. Which I like. Nice to have a normal guy for once who isn’t too cool for school. When we left, I said that it was good running into him and that if he wanted to hang out sometime to let me know, to which he nodded and smiled and said yes. Soooo we shall see. I just hope that he is interested. L seemed to think so based on his attentiveness, his direct eye contact and his body language. I hope she’s right. I was/am a bit buzzed off the Stella but I kinda think so. I know Stella is considered “disgusting” by the masses in Britain, but it worked to help take the edge off. I was so nervous when we first sat down that I could barely look at him. I’ll say it again: he’s so cute.