Breezy all at Sea

Seriously. I have had nothing but drama enter my life since my plane landed here. There was a major problem with my now ex-friend P that involved two other friends, and if we weren’t honest with each other, would have destroyed our friendships. I don’t feel like going into it because it’s too long and complicated but basically the man has mental problems, deliberately started vicious rumors, pitted people against one another, possibly damaged professional reputations, and just acted like a Mean Girl. I can’t even think about how awful and twisted he is. I don’t ever want anything to do with him again. I’m sickened by his actions. How he deceived me into thinking he was a nice guy and how he deeply hurt a dear friend of mine.

Add to that my old friend G. She called me Tuesday and I haven’t had time to call her back. I don’t need to explain myself to anyone and especially not on my old blog, but it’s the holidays and people get busy. I get a text from her earlier asking if I’m upset with her. So apparently, I’m supposed to drop everything and reassure her that I’m not. F that. I responded no but that I’m busy with family. Maybe that was too nice. Now, I’m upset with her. She was best friends for a long, long time. A couple years ago I realized how destructive and manipulative she is. I cut her out of my life and didn’t look back. Earlier this year, I allowed her back into my life and have seen how she hasn’t changed and probably never will. She has a tough life and I think that I feel bad for her. Which is not a good basis for a friendship. But I’m too nice. Ugh. So now, I feel like I need to stop being her friend again. I’m not getting pulled back into the drama that is her life.

Add to that my other friends J and B. We were all supposed to go out tonight and that has led to drama. Nevermind that I haven’t seen them in 4+ months. J called and when I didn’t answer because I was BUSY, she immediately texts me and asks what is going on, what is wrong, etc, etc. OMG. And she’s 33.  Last night B called and because again I was BUSY with my family, I didn’t answer. I called her back today and when she asked what I wanted to do and I said whatever, she makes a snide comment about how I ” probably want to  go out to B-town because that’s all I ever want to do.” Gee thanks. I haven’t been here in 4 months and now I’m being criticized for wanting to go out. And hello, I said “whatever” to going out.  To which she replies, we’ll just go out in another neighborhood. Fine. I don’t care. I just don’t even want to go out. I want to go home. Because add to that, my mom is making passive aggressive remarks about me being single. And how I should hook up with my roommate’s boyfriend’s roommate simply because he’s a guy. She doesn’t know anything about him, but because he’s a guy, he’s good enough. Because God Forbid I’m single. And I’m an old maid.

I am pissed. **steam coming out my ears**

So now what do I do? Pretend like everything is okay? No, because I’m not putting up with the drama anymore. I’m almost 30 (well a year or so away) and that’s not okay. I don’t have any of this drama in LA and I’m certainly not reverting back to it here.